Dying to Live
Have you ever woke up in the morning, and just didn't feel like being here? Have you ever found yourself in so much mess that you just thought about taking yourself out of this world? I mean truly with no thought of what people would think, no thought about friends or family or anything else that you would be leaving behind! How many people truly share their story to help anybody else.
I thought about committing suicide. Was a few moments from looking dead at hell, because that's where i would have been going if i would have been able to pull the trigger. And i'm real, I have nothing to hide from everybody. But I never knew when i woke up by the end of that evening, i would be going through all i had gone through. From waking up with a smile, to going to sleep with people watching over me!
But My purpose on this earth was not complete. God did not allow me to leave here because my work was not completed. Have you ever realized that there is purpose in your pain. There is purpose in your story. Their is purpose behind every breath that you are given to take. God will not allow you to quit early when there is still work for you to do, there is still a lot of people and lives that you could impact. Never be ashamed to tell your story. You're not the only one hurting, you're not the only one in pain and the only one going through. But you are the one that can make an impact so that nobody else will finish what you didn't.
If my suicide attempt would have been successful, then who wlbe here to encourage others that may be facing what i thought would defeat me? Who would be around to tell my success story? You have to think about things like that in advance. But God will not allow you to go anywhere when he has well abled you to finish everything you were called to do.
"For Many are Called, but few are Chosen" Matthew 22:14
But seriously don't ever think you know what people are going through and when. Because at one point i was the same person that said there couldn't be that much hell in the world that somebody would want to take their own life. And it's really not, take every breath you get as a reason to want to breathe. Because while some people choose to take their lives others lose theirs daily..
God knows i'm not perfect but he still thinks i'm to die for. And if He can die for me, I can live for him. Love the life that you have and enjoy every bit of what God has given you. Your purpose is not fulfilled until God says so, so no matter what you do and how you choose to screw it up or think that it is going to be screwed up, God still has a way of his purpose to be fulfilled through you. Remember that
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Never be scared to share your story, Your test will be used as your testimony
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