Abundantly Fly

I haven't written anything in a long time but was thinking about life and after talking to a friend I wanted to dedicate this one to my single mothers, mothers in general and a lot of women that are down, anybody that is going through anything or just needs to smile.

I see you, I seen everything that you have been going through. I watch you wake up everyday sometimes with a smile on your face and some days you just don't know whether you will be able to stand on your own to feet, but I see you. I seen everything that you were going to go through before you even started to go through it. I seen you crying last night, I seen you when you wanted to end it all. But I told you before I would never leave you nor would I forsake you.

I know what you are going through not having anybody to help you pay your bills, I know what you are going through when you have nobody to help you with your kids. But that's where your strength comes in at. I made you strong enough to give birth to my greatest creation. If you can push out a baby you can raise a baby on your own. You don't need validation from any man. You don't need a handout from anybody. I gave you a multitude of options and gifts to use to your benefit to be exactly who I called you to be. You have the opportunity to have your own money, you have the opportunity to have your own education. The only person you should depend on is Me. 

You are capable of standing alone. You have been doing so thus far, so why are you pouting? Why are you crying about having to do for yourself? Why are you crying about somebody being there for you when you will just complain once he gets there. You are my perfect creation. 

When man was lonely, I laid him down and performed the first surgery. I took from his rib and formed a woman. I created  her for him perfectly and beautifully. Her characteristics are as the rib, strong yet delicate and fragile. She is to provide protection for the most delicate organ in his body , his heart. His heart is the center of his being; his lungs hold the breath of life. The rib cage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to the heart. I created her to support him as the rib cage supports the body. I did not take from his feet, to be under him, nor was she taken from his head, to be above him. She was taken from his side, to stand beside him and be held close to him. I wanted to have him as close to me as possible so I created her. Adam walked with me in the cool of the day, yet he was lonely. He could not see me or touch me. He could only feel me. So everything I wanted Adam to share and experience with me, I fashioned in her just for him; my holiness, my strength, my purity, my love, my protection and support. She is special because she is an extension of me.

Know your worth, and Know exactly what you were created for and capable of. You are capable of everything a man is capable if not more. You can give life. You are a special, capable, gentle and great being. Know how great you are and know exactly what you are capable of. Know i would never have given you the breath of life if I did not think you were able to handle anything that i sat in your face.

You are strong, and the test and trials that you go through are just for your testimony. Everything you go through is to stand out and show the world what you are made of. You have to know who you are and know whose you are. When you know these things whether you are single or not will not matter. Know that I am always standing by you and will never leave you. 

This is for you, my child

Paint a new Picture

You think because you've seen this before that you will experience it again. You think because every man maybe even me has put you through hell you will continue to go through hell. You think becuase you have experienced nothing but failure and mediocrity in love that you will never experience a bang. That you will never experience love at it's highest power. 

Your assumptions lead to the loss of hope. The loss of wanting more becuae you think that what you had was the most you will get. You have never experienced true love. All you ever wished for was consistency. But you have only met men that are incosistent in life. The problem with them is they are even inconsistent in their incosistencies. You only wish for somebody that will put more into you than you have put into everyone that has been in your life combined. You just want him to see how drained you are and how you have nothing else to give. You don't trust men, you don't trust love, you don't trust life. Your heart has lead you in the wrong direction many times but your head has done you no better. You're lost on which way to turn or which way to run. You want to enjoy life but you're looking to enjoy love at the same time. What do you do?

Your wall has been torn down on several occasions and now its back up. It took forever to tear it down and now its built back up brick by brick. This time it's not going to fall and if it does it will be to the one that will have you for the rest of forever. The only problem is you have thought this before and dropped your walls and he left. He hurt you, he did everything that he said that he wouldn't do. You think that 

You don't ask for much only a man that gives more than he has. A man that is willing to fill you up in every aspect of your life. You're not trying to fill a void, nor are you trying to be completed by a man, but you are trying to have a man that compliments you. A man that is going to push you further than you have ever been pushed and even when you are negative on yourself he believes in you. He understands that as your man he may have #1 tagged on his forehead but God and family puts him in third place. He sees your pain and does everything he can to help you heal. A man that knows he can't fix every problem that you have and even if he has created some of those problems he is doing all that he can to make your problems disappear. 

Stop thinking so hard, fall in love with the thought that you have. Paint a new picture. If you want love, demand it, don't settle for it. Think opposite of what you have been thinking. Paint a new Picture. Obviously the painting that you have been trying to complete has yet to be finished the best option is to start over from scratch. Picture love for what you know it can be, not for what you thought it was to you. Picture life for what you want to see, not for what you have already seen. Picture the moments that can't be caught on camera, not every moment that you have already had. Paint a new Picture

Never Lost

I was just sitting here thinking that I have not written anything in the last few weeks and it made me think about Finding God, But how many people actually know that God never was Lost. Have you ever imagined what life would be like if you were lost? If you went somewhere you never knew where you were going, never had any sense of direction and you just look like a misplaced soul. That's how we are more often than not in God's eyes. We are lost and God is just waiting for us to speak up and ask for direction. Instead we tend to go to people that are just like us, people that are lost, people that don't know who they are, or who's they are! We are following people that are going in the wrong direction just as we are. The bad part about that is you can't follow a follower and if you are a leader, you can't be lost!

We think that in life we are Finding God. But God is telling us to find ourselves. He's not lost and He knows exactly where we are, when we get there, how we got there, and how long we are going to be there. God knows it all, We tend to think that because we don't know who we are or the purpose that God has for us that He has nothing for us. But little doe we know God has a plan for us. He has a plan for our problems, He has a plan for our praise. God is just attracted to your Problems as He is to your Purpose. But what He wants yout o understand is that His attraction to you is more than just physical. God is so attracted to you that He is willing to give you a future that you could never imagine on your own.

He says that you're not lost, you just took a detour. He planned that detour, He knew about it before you knew about it. He knew what you would go through, He knew the problems you would face. He seen the temptation before you did and along with the temptation He gave you all the ways to escape. God planned for you to reach your destination exactly when you will. There's no GPS, there's no Satelite, theres no map that will tell you exactly when and how long its going to take you to get to the place He has for you.

I thought with all I was going through that God left me, that He left me stranded. I thought that He wanted nothing to do with me. Little did I know with everything that I was going through He wanted to love me more. He was attracted to me more. He wanted to show me just how much He loved me. He allowed me to go through everything I went through to prove a point. His point was not I can get you out of this situation when I fee like getting you out. His point was I am not Lost. I am with you before you are going through, I am with you when you are going through and I am the one that will bring you through. God said " I will never leave you, nor will I forsake you"

Hebrews 13:5

King James Version (KJV)

 5Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.

When I created you, I created you to take the league. I created you first for a reason. I gave you everything I could create. I gave you life, I gave you love, I gave you strength. I gave you my heart, I gave you my soul, I gave you my passion, my emotion and my breath. Do you realize that when I created you, I was making you completely in my image. I didn't make any mistakes when I made you. I didn't intend on you to go off on a tangent, but yet I knew that you would even before you did it.

I have a book full of laws which were created just for you to live by. It's a book teaching you how to treat your neighbors, how to treat your family. A book that gives you basic life instructions on how to be prosperous, how to handle every day situations and temptations. I gave you a book that was intended with the purpose for you to be a leader. I made you a leader, I made you the head, I made you all that I knew you could be and all that I knew you would live up to. Along with my instructions I give you many gifts. I give you the gift of life, I give you wisdom. I give you everything that you would need to have an amazing life and an amazing relationship with me. I bless you abundantly, yet you decline every blessing I send to you. And then you have the audacity to complain about what I give to others. I bless you beyond your own comprehension but yet you are only willing to get 10 to 25 percent of everything that I choose to give you.

You were lonely, so I layed you down and performed the first surgery. I took from your rib and formed a woman. I created  her for you perfectly and beautifully. Her characteristics are as the rib, strong yet delicate and fragile. She is to provide protection for the most delicate organ in your body , your heart. Your heart is the center of your being; your lungs hold the breath of life. The rib cage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to the heart. I created her to support you as the rib cage supports the body. I did not take from your feet, to be under you, nor was she taken from your head, to be above you. She was taken from your side, to stand beside you and be held close to you. I wanted to have you as close to me as possible so I created her. Adam walked with me in the cool of the day, yet he was lonely. He could not see me or touch me. He could only feel me. So everything I wanted Adam to share and experience with me, I fashioned in her just for you; my holiness, my strength, my purity, my love, my protection and support. She is special because she is an extension of me.

But what did you do to the greatest gift I ever gave to you? I expect so much more from you, but yet you still fail me. You cuss her, you hit her, you break her in every way possible but yet she still stands by you because she has every piece of me inside of her. I built her to stand strong. But I also built you to do better. I built you to treat her like a queen. I gave you My Word!! If you don't believe open your bible and read "Song of Solomon" Read her definition in "Proverbs 31" I gave you all that you need to do it the correct way. I created you to stand out, when others choose to go astray I created you to show them the right way. And regardless of what you do or how you live, I still hold you to a higher standard than what you are doing. I believe in you to treat her like a queen. I believe in you to bless her with everything that I bless you with. Don't worry about what other people see you as, know that when I created you I made greatness!!

I see the man you were, because I seen all. I see the man that you are now, because I see all. I see the man that you are going to be in the future, because I know all. I am the one that made your life what it is going to be. I am the one that will give you everything that you have. So what I need for you to do, is to put into me everything that I put into you, because even when you don't I believe in You.

Proverbs 31

Genesis 2

Emmanuel R Watson

Have you ever been to a point in your life where you feel as if you there is nothing left in life to fight for? Do you have a feeling that sometimes you feel like nobody is on your side but you? I was talking to somebody today and she was at a point of desperation, a point where she feels like breaking, a point where there is no coming back. I have been in the same situation, not too long ago myself. 

From my experience, it takes a place of desperation in our lives until we really scream out for help, until we really decide that we no longer want to sit in the same position that we are currently sitting in. It takes so much out of people to get out of the places that we are in, a real place of desperation. Mentally you can't handle it, emotionally you are about to completely break, physically it has weighed you down so much that your body can't handle it. Headaches, sickness all because of the stress of life that surrounds you..

 I have been through so much in the last year, I hit rock bottom. From jobs, to friends, to just my lifestyle. And when I almost lost my life I was at the lowest of lows that for just for a brief moment I thought being taken from this world would have been the best thing for me. But i know im not the only person who has ever felt that way. Bills, family, friends, jobs. Just everything in general at the point i was at and the stage I was in that life couldn't get any worst than it already was, and would not get any better than i had already seen.

But little did I know that God had a lot of things in store for me in the near future. I learned that a lot of things we do in our lives we cause the problems ourselves, the issues we have, the relationship problems, the money problems, the friendships, we always try to find something else to drop the blame on but ourselves. I realized that I had to get back to me, that in order to get to the place that I wanted to be, I needed to get in the position that God wanted me to be in. And boy does he know how to catch your attention. Sometimes God has to strip us of everything that we were so focused on in order to get our attention. Sometimes we place material things and people before God and we forget who God is to us and what He has consistently done for us.

Never lose your confidence on who you are as a person, sometimes in life we have to walk away and walk alone. We have to stand up to stand out. We may lose people and if people is your focus then you have lost sight of who you are. I will say this that there is a blessing at the bottom of every barrel.

You have to go to the bottom of the barrel before you decide that you need to get to where you have to be. In order for God to work in you he has to completely strip you of everything that is stopping you from getting to the top of the mountain. You can not go to the top of the mountain weighed down full of mess. At times when you are in the middle of losing everything that you thought was so dear to you then you will learn that it was never of any importance in your life.

Time to start thinking about your future and time to start thinking about the things that you want in life and the places that God has called you to. Losing friends, losing family, and losing everything that you thought was of utmost importance will get you to the place of desperation that God needs you to be to see his face..

Love yourself and make sure that you are the number one priority in your life.. Never get so consumed by what surrounds you that you want to give up, life is about continuing to fight, the sin is not in growing weary, the sin is in giving up.. So don't give up... Continue to push towards Greatness.

Jeremiah 29:11 (New Living Translation)

11 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.